For Such a Time As This

I– like many other young women– have struggled off and on with my self-worth. Especially recently.

It’s easy to feel that way. Friends not putting in much effort into being friends. Making slow progress in school. Failing at money-making endeavors. Struggling with a mysterious illness for over a year.

At certain points, I had trouble keeping my eyes fixed on the Author and Sustainer of all life. As though God wasn’t there for me.

At certain points, I felt lazy (I couldn’t do a lot of my chores because of my illness). As though my worth was in the things I accomplished.

At certain points, I was ashamed– I hated the way I looked, acted, and felt. As though my family loved me less because of those things.

At certain points, I felt depressed. As though my life wasn’t worth living anymore.

Several times, I was to the point of breaking. In His mercy, God prevented me from doing anything rash.

He prevented me by sending me encouraging friends. By showing me that ultimately academics are nothing in light of eternity. By reminding me that He will provide for all of my needs. By giving me patience (by way of the Holy Spirit) through my illness.

God showed me that I was walking through this fire so He could refine me– could mold me more into His image (2 Corinthians 3:18; 1 Peter 1:6,7). He showed me that I didn’t really believe He loves me and that I have to daily choose to believe that He does.

I was assured that not only God loves me, but my family does too. They don’t find me burdensome.

God called me beautiful when He fearfully and wonderfully made me (Psalm 139:14). And even though that beauty was tainted by sin’s curse, He has re-beautified me by the death of His Son (Psalms 149:4). I’m no longer a slave, I’m His daughter! (Galatians 4:7)

And just like Esther in the Bible, I know God has placed me on this earth “for such a time as this…” Already, God has used this trial to draw me closer to Him, and to use it as an encouragement for others who struggle.

So be encouraged! Keep your eyes on God– He began a good work in you and He won’t give up on you! (Philippians 1:6) He can use your “such a time as this” as a spring-board to draw others close to Him. Daily choose to believe He loves you!!! He has proven it so many times, and ultimately by giving up His only Son on the cross!!!

Family Portraits

I am sorry for being AWOL (Absent WithOut Leave) so much lately— I have not been feeling very well for several weeks and have had to miss out on a lot of things, including blogging.

About a week ago, we took family photos. I thought I would share my favorites. 🙂

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I have cool “ninja” brothers. 😉
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Pheebster
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Me[ebster] 😉
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Aw… dey be so cUtez!
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Jaden-bug 🙂
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Abbit. 🙂
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Joelito. 🙂
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The four Kautt sisters. 🙂
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The entire Kautt Krew
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Silly time! 🙂
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What cuties! 🙂

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Photoshoot {Abby, Rachel, + Rowena}

On Sunday, I had the opportunity to do another impromptu photoshoot– with my sis, Abby, and my cousins, Rachel and Rowena. 🙂 It was fab! Crazy awesome thing was— I had no idea what kind of outfit my cousin Rowena was bringing (I had asked to do something dressy). So when they arrived I looked out the window and saw that she brought a pale pink outfit. Well, cogs started turning in my brain, and I remembered that I have a pale pink vintage fascinator hat that I’ve been wanting to use for SO long (but hadn’t had the chance) and thought it might just go with the outfit my cousin brought. Sure enough. She brought an outfit that went with it so perfectly, it was as though we had planned it. 🙂 So, say ‘hello’ to the vintage 1950’s cousin of mine! 😉

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Rowena

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Take time to smell the roses…

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Casual
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This is one of my faves of her 🙂

 

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Rachel

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Cousins – Rachel and Abby

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I was persuaded to join in a few of the photos. 🙂
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Double trouble. 😉

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Thank you, Abby, for taking the last three photos! =) You did a fab job– quit telling yourself you didn’t. 😉 Also, thanks for chauffeuring us to the location. 🙂